October 12, 2009

• I’m not sure where I’m going with this…

  …but that’s nothing new. I’m just sitting in my cubicle, sipping on my lukewarm tea from this morning, and wondering what the hell is wrong with me. I’m thinking I’m depressed, but I’m not altogether sure why. It’s kinda funny, I still seem to have all the same sence of humor, same sence of self-depreciation, and same dismissal of what other people think of me. That said, things just seem to be getting me down, and I don’t know why. I got a “boost” as I made a breakthrough with my history project, but I’m still not quite as go-getter as I was. Mainly, I’m just so damned tired. Tired of the fourteen hour days in the first half of the week, followed by the pressure from the friends and family to be the “go to” guy for everything. I’m thinking that after this weekend, the family reunion, and OTHER than the official CBT event, I’m going to have to tell everyone to take a flying leap. It’ll be hard, but I’ll probably even give up the internet communities for a solid month. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t care what people think about me… but I’m beginning to care too much again about what other people think about each other. And frankly, I’ve too much on my plate to deal with that kind of sixteen-year-old drama.

  Shit, that’s not where I wanted to go. Oh hai, what about Zendikar, I gots me some Allies!

  • 6:37 pm
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